Place to hear loud cumbia on the daily: Cocoa Cinnamon Lakewood
Thursday, December 11, 2025
Our highly eccentric, deeply subjective, Best of 2025
Sunday, November 23, 2025
Fear and Trembling
As I joined others at a Ready the Ground nonviolent bystander intervention training on Sunday the 16th, I didn't realize that my skills would be needed so soon. On Tuesday the 18th, Customs and Border Patrol (CBP) invaded Durham, and I came face to face with a man named "Mayer" who would neither confirm nor deny that he was CBP. He was dressed in all blue and black government issue, drove a white Suburban with Colorado plates, said he did not live in the Soho Apartments at 901 Chalk Level Rd., said that he was with corporate (we later learned that there was no out-of-state corporate) and he had flown into town for just today and that this was his rental (!) and who had never been seen before by actual residents by Soho Apartments; who slammed the door in my face as he went into the management office, locked the door on me though I was doing nothing threatening, told me that I couldn't film him (I told him it was my 1st amendment constitutional right to do so), who took my photo, would not not identify himself to me by his name, would not give his full name or identification to DPD, who put a stooge named "Marty" from management (also unidentified) on the phone with me saying that I would have to leave, who called DPD on me and the other volunteers, and who eventually threatened us with trespassing even though we were doing nothing harmful. We observed other vehicles consistent with CBP (Suburbans and Expeditions) going in and out of the development monitoring us as the situation progressed. I found my mind both adrenalized and stretched out as I tried to do the best thing in the moment, knowing that I had only be trained in this work days earlier. There was nowhere to hide when I was cast into the moment of, "Do I confront this guy?" and "Am I safe?"
Because NSB is 60% Spanish-speaking, I feel I need to work as hard as I can to protect them from uncertainty, discrimination, scapegoating, and profiling. We facilitated rides to and from work with Caucasian employees. We put up a sign saying No ICE Access. We respected the decision by some employees that they did not want to risk coming to work. We gave away free meals for those locked down. We told our staff we would do whatever it took to protect them.
My grandmother spent years hiding from Nazis in a small, cramped, bunker in Lithuania underneath a barn with her sister, not knowing whether she would live or die (listen here for a similar story on Holocaust-hiding). Everyone else in her family was murdered. I would not be here today if not for the gentile family who hid her in 1942-1945. That is why it makes my blood boil to think that in America in 2025 I should need to plan for the emergency where I would hide my Spanish-speaking friends in the bakery that I own should ICE/CBP violate our rights by coming into the workplace without warrants. Clearly, these incursions of CBP officers hundreds of miles from the border into blue-held cities is political. Donald Trump and his evil troll army has shown their faces, and it comes in the form of "Mayer" and "Marty".
After we were moved to observing at the public entrance on Chalk Level Rd., we did not hear of any further activity on the property, though many residents, especially the Spanish-speakers, were freaked out, and appreciated us being there (as many as twenty volunteers showed up). Though it was never verified, my best guess is that the management corporation of Soho Apartments, Z18, based in Charlotte, was working with CBP. My video with the "Mayer" and "Marty" is below. Douche.
Tuesday, May 20, 2025
Thursday, April 17, 2025
Thursday, January 16, 2025
The Twenty People Who Changed Downtown Durham
I've recently been working with a self-appointed task force from ATC (led by Michael Goodmon of Capitol Broadcasting and owner of ATC) that has been charged with trying to reduce the amount of aggressive panhandling and criminal behavior among the unhoused in Downtown Durham. There have been assaults, vandalism, threats, sexual misconduct, destruction of property, you name it. Servers and bartenders afraid to go to their cars from their place of work. So much so that City Council and the Durham Police and the DA have all assembled to talk about it. Hoteliers are saying that people won't book because they feel unsafe here. When it gets down to it, it's agreed that it is mainly 20 or so "frequent flyers" that are the primary cause of the issue, who are habitually arrested and then released on unsecured bail, who often are in and out of the EDs.
Prior to the meeting, this was my email to the group trying to gather my thoughts on the issue:
Tuesday, December 24, 2024
Wednesday, December 18, 2024
Best of 2024
NSB Benefit: Pancake Brunch for WNC
Diss track since Ether: Not Like Us
Thursday, August 29, 2024
Beefsteak Etiquette
Still a masterful essay from Joseph Mitchell.
https://medium.com/@Beefsteak/all-you-can-hold-for-five-bucks-dc945bba60d
Friday, June 14, 2024
Baker's Dozen and The "Schmear"
There are a few theories as to why a baker’s dozen became 13, but the most widely accepted one has to do with avoiding a beating. In medieval England there were laws that related the price of bread to the price of the wheat used to make it. Bakers who were found to be “cheating” their customers by overpricing undersized loaves were subject to strict punishment, including fines or flogging. - Brittanica.com
Schmear (n.) - also schmeer, 1961, "bribery," from Yiddish shmir "spread," from shmirn "to grease, smear," from Middle High German smiren, from Old High German smirwen "to smear" (see smear (v.); compare slang grease (someone's) palm "to bribe"). - Etymologyonline.com
In Brooklynese, the "schmear" is both cream cheese and a bribe. As you place the money in the hand, the two hands slide schmearing as on a bagel.
Walkable Durham
With Beyu and Copa closing recently, the wake-up call that remote work has hit the businesses serving non-residential city centers has become more real. Jack Tar closed last year. Pompieri closed as well. While new businesses will likely grow into these spaces, one has to wonder whether we will see more closings in 2024.
Wednesday, March 13, 2024
New Breweries in Durham
With four new breweries either opening or recently opened (I count DSSOLVR, Flying Bull, Atomic Clock, and Proximity, am I missing one?), one might think that the booze market here in Durham is getting oversaturated.
I distinctly remember Fullsteam opening in 2010 and its packed taproom was the default event venue for baby showers and birthdays, complete with links from the Farmhand Foods (now Firsthand Foods) truck.
Soon thereafter (2015), Ponysaurus took the reins as the go-to brewery location for local hangs. With the crowds now in abeyance from both those locations (are we just going out less?), I ask have we passed Peak Beer, or is this just a build-out for a more populous future in the Downtown district? Or are these breweries the pet projects of well-funded amateurs investing in a declining business model?
Wednesday, March 6, 2024
Tuesday, December 19, 2023
Best of 2023
Thursday, November 2, 2023
Artisan Baker Raven Norris
Thursday, October 5, 2023
Murders in Durham
The recent spate of violence in Durham is nothing like what is happening now in Portland, but for anyone who works Downtown, the increased violence and schizophrenia of the panhandling and unhoused community is well known. In a terrible quote from the Times article above,
He estimated that based on the body’s temperature, this victim had been dead for more than an hour, which meant dozens of commuters had walked by his body during rush hour before one stopped to check his breathing and call 911.
Monday, a Duke grad student was murdered, and the man held in custody is someone known to the bar and restaurant industry of Durham as a regular.
Last night at 11pm, my own neighbor in Northgate Park was shot at in his car as he pulled in. In the morning, I found the car window punctured with a bullet hole, and four spent casings littered the curb next to my eucalyptus tree. Thirty people have been shot and killed this year in Durham, and 115 non-fatally. Growing up, the only pops I heard where from a tennis court nearby my home. Now I have to tell my son not to be scared when he hears gunshots.
Implicit in the Times article is that we are all complicit in the stepping around of a dead body laying out in the street. Two months ago, arriving at work, a Durham ambassador told me as I stepped out of my car, "You got a body in your bathroom". There was a man sprawled out on the bakery customer bathroom floor, a dirty knee twisted as if to draw a perfect chalk outline. He could have been sleeping, so I spoke to him. No reply. Not even a flickering of the eyelids. His skin color was between olive and gray. I yelled louder. No response. Should I check to see if he's breathing? Five minutes later, I put 911 on speakerphone. After a couple minutes, the sound of the dispatcher must have roused him. He got up and scampered away, leaving his phone charging in the wall outlet.
We depend on our City officials to provide safety and security for the residents. We depend on first responders to handle crisis situations. We depend upon the health care system to tend to mental illness and addiction. We depend on the legal and penal system to provide pathways to rehabilitation for offenders. Right now, none of these systems are working, either independently or together. It's enough to give you a panic attack.
That is exactly what happened to me. In the second year of Covid (2022), I began getting panic attacks from the overwhelm of everything that was going wrong. I eventually began seeing a holistic chiropractor/therapist and went down the path of becoming a trained breathwork guide and ice therapy coach. It's helped. And I've been able to train others. For every systemic malfunction, there are people like Michael Bock who are like Jedi, like angels literally trying to "hold back the ocean". The ocean is coming, and the question remains what we're going to do about it.
Friday, April 7, 2023
Sights and sounds
Anywhere are you go in Durham you can hear the pop of a nail gun hitting timber for a new four-on-one development.

